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What is the meaning of human life? Why we are alive? What is the purpose of the whole thing? What the meaning of my life? 
100 is the best know tracking program and signifies the effort of mankind to push for new records. Running 100 meters is easy for any able person but difficult for professionals to push 0.1 sec on the record. I chose 400 meters, a program less symbolic but harder for requiring both strength and stamina. The almost obsessive strive to be extraordinary on the track highlighted my life. I have cultivated far beyond running and avoided tunnel vision to be incurred by obsession as predicted by common myth.
A perfect 400-meter-match employs at least 500 out of the total 600+ human muscles. Intuition carried me through my first match, as I could not distinguish my inner or outer thighs in enunciation. Eight years after that, through consistent training to move against and beyond intuition, I have been capable of precisely contracting and stretching the gluteus maximus. The precision is never innate but learned. I was rendering extraordinary out of the ordinary intoxicated me with ecstasy.
It was running taught me the delicateness of my body. Negligence to messages from our body leads to injury and thus impairs further advancement. Therefore, for better knowledge, I read anatomy, talked to physicians and doctors, observed nutrition diets and recipes, and even used meditation as a drill for concentration. The efforts united my body and will into a perfect couplet—I stopped whenever it demanded and heading forwards without reservation whenever it impelled.
My coaches considered me extremely fortunate. However, fortune does not last but reverses upon climax. My fortune left me in nostalgia upon departure. Viral Myocarditis almost took my gift away in 7th grade and deemed my career in sports over. As Admiral Nelson returned to achieve higher having lost a forearm, I, with the blessing from family, friends, and coaches, came back with more, with power to stay comfortable with and to prepare for an alternative path. During the leave, I focused on school work and other interests. I talked myself out of melancholy from missing the past glory and the anticipated foregoing of sports. After that, upon full recovery, I re-entered the field with resoluteness and courage.
Love from divorced parents was occasionally aloof and disappointing in my childhood. Cheers in sports only quenched the craving for love and attention. I used sports to hedge loneliness and ergo sheltered myself in it. Past achievements on the track won for my honor and love from coaches, friends, and the entire community. Reading Bible brought me further enlightenment, that running should never have been the means to compensate love but in itself, a gift by the grace of God, thus put my feelings at ease.
I find strength, stamina, and, more importantly, harmony in the soul. I refrained myself from excessive pressure to avoid breaking down and from indulgence to keep bettering. Pursuing new records and self-protection reached a delicate equilibrium. My track will never cease unveiling the truth about life or then sharing them with others around.


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